Stress !

I am so over stressed with studying for finals. I just found out today that I have 2 finals in one day, Ele. Functions and Comp Apps. My 2 least favorite classes. The only good part about this is that I don't have a final til Wednesday so i have 2 day to study before my finals start. I will be very happy on Friday when I finish my last final. Then I can pack my car and drive the 2 hrs home for a much needed break. I'm going to spend the rest of today studying and making note cards for the classes that need them. Once I have the all done I might just give myself a break to watch the Glee fall final tonight. I'm looking forward to what the show is planning for its first big final. Ok I guess I should start to study so that I will have to time to relax later tonight and maybe go to bed before 2.

Final Push

I'm sitting in my room with two of my friends trying to get stuff done before finals week comes up. We are all trying to finish papers and worksheets that are all due this week. It will be so nice to be finished with all this stuff and just have to study for the classes that I have finals in. We are all having a little trouble get our work done since we are watching the movie 50 First Dates. Its such a cute movie, it makes me wish that I had a guy that would do all those things for me. Not know who you are each day that you get up in the morning has to be very scary. To have someone who's there everyday to take the steps with you makes living life an easier thing to do. Along with watching the movie I am listening to music. I have come across a song that just keeps playing over in my head. Rosyln by Bon Iver and St. Vincent, I don't know why I like it. Its one of those songs that just goes with the mood that your in. Between the movie and the music, I will hopefully be able to get my work done, or most of it.

Math

I will be so happy when I am do with math. It has always seemed like the prof. is just talking and everything that they are saying is just going in one ear and out the other. I have never really used the math that I have learned over the years. Where in real life does the sin of A ever come in handy? Next semester I am talking stats. for research and I am hoping that I will be done after that. Then I will never have to sit through another math class again. I am so ready to be done with all this stuff. The worst part of the math class that I am in now is that my prof. is crazy. Hes really old and always talks about things that have nothing to do with math. He also talks with his back to the class so that makes it even harder to hear or understand whats going on. Its also so hard to stay awake in this class and since I have it at 8 in the morning it really sucks.

Geese

Im not the biggest fan of geese. Although I think that they are very cool in the way they fly and are such a part of fall for me. I just dont think that they are very nice birds. My family had white geese when I was growing up. Those geese hated me, every time we used to let them out of their pen they would attack me. They would case after me trying to bite me. My sister, who is older than me, would let them out on purpose just so she could watch me run around and cry. It got to the point where I would get on top of my moms car just to get away from them. I was told that I looked like a bug on the windsheld, with all the geese running around the bottom of the car. I know this kinda mean but I was so happy when the big mean one died. After that the others didnt chase me as much. Now when ever I see a goose, I try to stay as far away as possible. This kinda makes that walk out to NWBR even less fun since they are all over that lake.

Packing

Packing for home! So ready to leave but dont know what to take home with me. Im trying to think of what Im going to need when Im home. Also having trouble find bags to put all the stuff that I have in. Its reallt hard to pack and get things together when theres like 5 people in your room talking and playing music. Not saying that I dont want them here, its just it makes it hard to get things done. Also my roommate is trying to finish a paper that she has to do and I dont think that Im helping any by being loud in the room. But I think shes almost done so hopefully she doesnt kill me:).

I am so happy that I dont have my last class tomorrow so that means that I get to leave even earlier than I planed, which means I get to get home sooner. Yay!

Thanksgiving

I am so ready to go home for break. The food in the caf. is just not cutting it for me any more. I am ready for a good home cooked meal. Thanksgiving is the best time to go home for a home cooked meal. My grandmother is one of the best cooks around. Just thinking about her cooking is making me so hungry. I love going home at this time of year because I get to see all my friends from home, since they are also on break. We also have lots of people over for Thanksgiving day and dinner. It's nice to see all the people that I haven't seen in a long time. We have a really good family friend that lives in England, that comes to celebrate Thanksgiving with us every year. I still find it funny that since he is from England that they don't have Thanksgiving and that's why he comes over to be with us. Another good thing about Thanksgiving break is the shopping. Black Friday is always crazy, but can be a lot of fun at the same time. Tuesday can;t come fast enough.

Another Day

Ever have one of those days were you just don't feel like doing anything. Today was like that for me. I got up this morning and was so tempted to just skip my 3 classes to sit in my bed all day and just watch movies all day. Thanksgiving break is a much needed break and I will be so happy once it is finally here. I am just done with school and the work that comes with it. I know its bad when all I want to do is sit in a bath tub filled with bubbles. That always helps deal with some of the stress that I go through here at school. I'm not the only one who is fried with school and stress, my friends are feeling it too. There comes a point when you just have to get away. It really sucks when you are sitting in your own room and know that 2 of your friends are texting each other about you. It has gotten to the point where I just don't ask whats going on any more because I don't want to have to deal with it. Also I have been hanging out with me guys friends more and more because I just cant take girls anymore, being a girl myself. Ugh break needs to be here now!

Winter

Winter always seems to put a great deal of pressure and stress on relationships and friendships. I don't know if its the fact that its cold and dark most of the time now. I just feel like everyone around me, including myself is grumpy over nothing. My friends and I have been ready to snap over the smallest things lately. Having to share a room with 3 other girls doesn't help much either. Even my guys friends have been grumpy more than usual. Since it is cold and dark outside, and everyone around me is grumpy, all I want to do is snuggle up in my bed and go to sleep. I have the most comfortable bed and when people start to get to be to much I just want to get away. My room/bed is the only place that I can do that.

Spider Bite

Yesterday I found a really large bump on my right knee. It was really hot to the touch. It also hurt if I put to much pressure on it. I didnt think anything of it when my leg started to itch over the weekend. Everyone I talked to said that it looked like a spider bite. And since my leg started to itch before I went home this weekend, that means that I had to have been bitten at school sometime. I really hate spiders and the fact that one of them bite me while I was sleeping really freaks me out. I washed all my sheets as soon as i found out that I was most likely bitten in my sleep. Today I went to the health center for the first time ever. They all said that it looked like a spider bite too. So now I have some very large white pills to take. Oh joy !

Weekend !

I am going home this weekend and I am taking two of my friends with me. Its the first time that I am taking friends home with me. I think that they are both excited to have a relaxing weekend at the farm and to get away from the stress of school. They are both in for bit of a shock when they find out that their cell phones may not work that well. My house is very old and I live in the middle of no where. I think that it will do them both some good to get away from their phones and enjoy the weekend. One of my friends has never been on a horse before, so I'm looking forward to see what she does when I put her on one of my horses. I know that there's going to be a lot of pictures being taken this weekend.
One of my good friends from home is also going to be home this weekend. It will be interesting she see how my new friends and my old friends get along. They are very different from one another and it makes me nervous to put them together. All I ca do is hope that everything goes well and that we all have a good time.

People

I really hate it when someone comes up to me and tells me that they want to talk to me about something or they say that they have something to tell me and they never do tell me. The best is when you ask them on a different day what they wanted to say and they don't remember or don't want to tell you any more. I was at a party the other night when a friend of mine walked up to me and said that we need to talk later and I didn't think anything of it. The next day I texted him asking asking what he meant and his answer was that he just wanted to talk about some random stuff. Also he said that he wasn't feeling up to it at that moment and that I don't need to worry. Then he texted me back almost teasing me that I didn't know what he wanted to talk about. Well as soon as that was said I started to worry because I have no clue what he wanted to talk about and now I don't want to bring it up again. Also it seems as though he doesn't want to bring it up either and I'm afraid of what he has to say.

Rain

I am so over this sucky cold rain that we have been having. If it is going to be cold than it should snow not rain. This cold rain just stays with you and you can never get dry. Having class out in NWBR at 8 in the morning really does stink when its raining. This morning I was running late and didn't have an umbrella, so I just kept on walking. By the time that I got to class I was completely soaked. Sitting in class all I did was look out the window at the pouring rain, I mean buckets of rain. Is it bad when you can't see out the window any more because of all the rain? All I could think about was the walk to my next class is not going to be fun at all.These are the days that I wish that i drove my car out to class. The best part about all this raining stuff is that I have rain boots, but do you think I have them with me? NO they are at home sitting in my room where it is not raining. They are really cute too, there are horses all over the sides. Since it never rained this much last year I didn't think that I would need them this year. Well I was wrong and I am now paying for it by having to sit in class all day with wet jeans all the way up to my knees.

Boyfriend Issues

This past weekend I have done nothing but deal with my friends boyfriends issues. I just want to be like please break up already and move on. I know that would be really mean so I never said it. It got to the point were I I stopped texting back because no matter what I said she always did what she thought was best. I understand that it's hard to say good bye but sometimes you have to do it in order to move on in your life. You have to be able to walk on your own 2 feet in order to be able to share your life with someone else. Maybe that just single me talking but, I think that you have to be your own person first. My friend has not be single since like her freshman year of high school. All of my other friends think that she need to spend some time on her own so that she can grow up a little and find out who she really is. I love my friend to death but i just wish that she would put this no good boyfriend behind her and have a little fun for once in her life.

Halloween Haunting

This weekend is Halloween Haunting and last night was the first night. Me and my two friends went on the hay ride. It was not as scary as it was last year, which is kinda of sad. I don't really like scary things at all but since I know a lot of the people who are scaring this year I was ok with it. It was a lot of fun to go out and just see all the work that people had done to put it all together and just ride the hey ride around the fields. There was this little girl on our ride and I thought that she was going to dry at one point. She was too cute and I felt bad that she got scared. Her mom asked us if the haunted house was good and I said that I didn't know because I had never gone and that last year people had to leave because it was to much. Later that night we saw them and the mom said that they never made it to the end of the house, that they had to leave right after they started. Even though it wasn't that great last night I think that I might be going tonight too. I'm just hoping that they all get their acts together and are a lot more scary. If not I will most likely be sitting up in D lot with some of the boys lax team that have to be parking cars. Either way I'm going to have a fun night.

Computers 2

So I'm not a fan of computers at all. Which makes my computer apps. class really suck. I have homeworks due every week. They are all different things between worksheets and doing something on the computer its self and submitting it on blackboard. The worksheet that I have to do for this week really sucks. I have no clue what half of the answers are. I know that we went over all this in class but for some reason I don't remember where everything is. If I liked this class or computers at all I wouldn't be having all this trouble. To make things that much better I also have to do a midterm for this class. There are 3 different dates that I get to pick from in order to complete the midterm. But I don't even want to do it at all. I want nothing to do with computers. As far as I know there will not be that much need for computer in what I want to do with the rest of my life. So I will just have to get down to it and get over the fact that no matter what I do, I still will no nothing about computers.

Sickness

I have so far been lucky to not catch the sickness that has been going around. Most of my friends have a cold of some type. My one friend even has the flu and had been told that she might even have the swine flu. She went home last weekend and came back this Tuesday still not feeling any better. I spend most of my time hanging out with friends that live in Goldman. Goldman had become one of the dorms with the most sick people. There is only a few rooms that don't have a sick person living in it. Since Goldman had been so sick I have been trying to keep my distance, but still want to be with my friends. Most nights I still go over and hang out with my friends in one of the clean/safe rooms hoping that I'm not going to catch anything.

My roommate on the other hand is always sick. She should be taking a bunch of medication to keep her healthy. For some reason she hasn't been taking any of her pills and she has gotten really bad. She sleep all the time and even has been missing a lot of her classes. To top it all off her has a really bad cold. Sometimes when I look at her, her skin color almost looks green. Her mom came and picked her up yesterday to go and have her blood tested. I hope that she is ok and she gets better really soon.

So Cold

I feel like the colder that it gets outside the more I want to just curl up and go back to sleep. Most mornings I reset my alarm so that I can sleep as late as possible. Which is funny because I love to be outside no matter what the weather is like. I love the cold weather and the changing of the seasons. All the different colors of the trees and their leaves just seem to make things pop and stand out a little more. Another thing I love about the cold is the smell of it, fall just seems to have a very relaxing smell.The way sky looks around dust time is another one of my favorite times of fall. The sky is always full of different colors and the sun set is couldn't be any better. I feel that its getting colder and colder much faster this year than last year. I was told that because of the amount of rain that we had over the summer that we are going to have a really bad winter. Which I am all for because I love the snow and snow means that we may get out of classes. Last I think that we only got out of two days of classes. It was kinda sad since I went to a high school that was known as the Hereford Zone. When all other schools in the area were running on a delay my school was closed. I feel that since my high school is almost 3 hours south of here that we should get more snow and be able to get out of more classes. I just keep wishing that some day this will be true.

Going Home :D

Tomorrow I get to go home for the first time in a long time. I so can't wait! It going to be really be a really long drive home just because i cant wait to get there and I only live like 2 hours away. The best part about going home is getting to see all of my animals. Also for once I get to ride my own horse, which will be a nice break from riding the teams horses. I get to see my kittens, which I'm sure are about the size of a moose by now. Emmett and Ron W. are my foster kitten that I ended put keeping because I could give them up. When I left for school they were still small but my mom keeps calling me to tell me that they are huge and getting into everything.I just hope that they remember me. I love going home because no matter what my animals are always happy to see me and always make feel welcome. I feel at peace when I'm home with my animals and I am so in need of that after this long week that I have had.

Roommates

I live with 3 other girls in South. Two of them I really like living with but the one i think is crazy. She has some how gotten it in her head that we are dirty and never clean. Yet I clean every weekend. Here is the kicker she keeps writing things on facebook, like how she needs new roommates. I have no clue what I have done to her. I never talk to her or see her because her door is always closed. The other day my roommate tried to talk to her and she wouldn't even speak back and when she was asked to turn down her music she just turned it up. Now her music is loud 24-7. In South we have our own bathroom and shower between the 4 of us. The crazy roommate has 9 bottles of shampoo and conditioner that live in the shower at all times. None of my stuff is ever in the shower, I have to keep my stuff in a bucket on the floor. All of her stuff takes over the counter tops in the main hallway, so there is no room for anyone else to put anything. Which we can't do anyway because she would just move it out of the way so she could put more of her stuff there. She has no friends and I can see why because no one is able to put up with this stuff. I just wish that she would move out since she didn't even choose to live with the rest us it shouldn't be that hard. I about to go to my RA a say something about what has been going on. If I knew what I had done to upset her I would be fine and do what I could to change it. Since I have no clue what that is, its just making me crazy that she is just sitting over in the next room wanting nothing to do with the rest of us that live here.

Computers

I am one of those people who waits til the last minute to do things. The other day I had a computer apps. assignment due. There was a whole page of things that needed to be included. Of course I waited til the day that it was due to start working on it. Once i started the assignment I found out that I didn't remember where half of the stuff was. I had to go and ask my professor for help during my class. I was very lucky that I had class that day because without her help I don't think that I would have been able to the project. Some time I feel so out of place in this generation because I don't understand or like using electronics. When something happens to my computer or phone, I would mostly likely give it to someone else to deal with. So when things went wrong with my assignment and I didn't have the professors help, I kinda just did the best I could and that was it. I think that I turned it in even with some parts missing. I was just so done with the fact that it wasn't turning out the way that I wanted it to.

Friends

Why is that friends could be right there with you in what ever you are doing and then talking behind your back in the next minute? I really hate when this happens because it seems to happen more often then not. Just the other day my friends were fighting over the fact that they all didn't go to the same party. Now i don't even know what started this but some how I ended up get most of the hurt. I didn't even go to the party, I was DD for the night. I was willing to drive them where ever they wanted and they still got in a fight and were crying over nothing. As of right now I think that we worked out all of the issues but who knows the next time could something totally new. We have all some what forgiven each other and are trying not get in each others faces. I just hope that this last longer then a week.

First Show

Tomorrow is our first show for the western team. I'm still not really sure how is going to go but the unknown is kinda fun. I have been to the last two lesson and have gotten to ride a few of the horses. They all seem really cool and don't seem like its going to be hard to just get on and go. The coach also seems to be a lot of fun and like the way that I ride. I have to be up and ready to meet by the bus at 7 tomorrow morning, ugh! This means that I have to get up around 5:30 to get all my stuff together. I just hope that i don't forget anything, which something i almost always do. I have to make lists in order to make sure that I get everything done. Its going to be funny to have to get back into all my old show clothes again. I put them on the other day and my roommate laughed at me. Every thing has to be shinny and stand out so i have this dark blue shirt with sparkles all over it. It does look funny to people outside of the horse world but to the judges it what they want. As long as i have all my stuff together and don't leave any of it behind then i should be fine no matter what horse I get.

First Exams

I have my first exams this Thursday. Genetics, Ele Func, and Chem 2. 3 classes that take up a lot of my time. My math shouldn't be that bad because it is open note. I'm just hope that my notes are going to be enough. On the other hand Genetics and Chem 2 might be some trouble. Genetics has a lot of vocab and information that you need to know. I'm going to spend most of my nights in my room going over and over notes. Chem 2 might as well be another language for me and I'm hoping that my tutor will be able to help me out a little. Having 3 exams in one day really does suck. Another reason why that sucks is the fact that they are back to back starting from 8. That doesn't give me a lot of time to look over my notes before each class. Wow I'm so looking forward to Thursday, which used to be my favorite day of the week. I guess the only good part is that once I'm done the exams I have a long weekend with hopefully not a lot of homework. Yay! for no Friday classes.

Home

I got to go home on Thursday night. The only bad part was that I had to come back to school on Friday. It was so good to be able to go home even if it was only one night. Getting to see my animals is one of the main things I look forward to when I go home. Also the food at home is so much better then what is at school. I had a lot of fun getting to see my sister and mom, we always get a little crazy when the three of us are together. Now that I'm back at school my room feels a little empty without my dog and cat in it. It was kinda hard to fall asleep at first but somehow I was able to do it. I am always ready to go home and get away for school but for some reason when I get home I can’t wait to get back to school. I start to miss my life at Del Val. I feel as if now I have to homes that I can’t live without. I have family in friends in both places that make living in them that much more fun.

Chemistry

I would like to start off by saying the Chem II is not my friend. I have been trying to figure out what we have been doing over the past couple of weeks with no luck at all. I have even signed up for a tutor who I hope will be very helpful. I never like to have to ask for help but in this case I have no choice. I would take Chem I over Chem II any day. I feel as if I’m being taught in another language. Why is it that the lecture is so much harder than the lab? Do you know how it feels to sit in a class for over an hour and leave having no clue what was just talked about? Well that’s what I feel like every time I leave. I take notes like it’s my job, but do you think that I know what they mean? What I do know for some reason never seems to sick with me. Last night I had to do this online assignment, which totally kicked my butt. Somehow I was able to make it though and hope that I can do better on the next one. All I can say is that if your taking Chem in any form be sure to take the time out to study and go over your notes. Also don’t be shy about getting a tutor because sometime they can really help you understand stuff better than a professor.

Meeting New People

So I went to my first meeting for the DVCET, it was nice to know that I don't have to try out after all. I do have a placement ride this Saturday. I got to meet some really nice new people who i hope that i will get to ride with in the future. The team sounds like they are all really close and when riding that is always a lot of fun.

This past week I have met so many new people, which I find kinda funny since I am such a shy person. As one of my friends told me last year, “you will learn that shy is not an excuse.” So this year is different, I’m more outgoing and talkative in my classes and with people in general. I'm having more fun and getting to go out and not stress over my work. I was a little worried that living in South would make it hard to meet more people but since I spend most of my time in the other dorms it doesn't seem to matter. It's just that much better to be able to come back to some place without a lot of noise.

Start of a New Year

My first week back at DVC went fairly well. It was great to see all my friends that I had missed over the summer. You wouldn't believe how much you could miss the people that you just met. Now that I'm back it was a little hard to get back in the swing of having to do work. The first week of classes is finally over! I would have to say that this year is so much better than last year, it was nice not having to run around and find out which building was which and how the rooms are set up. It was so nice to get back to school and be able to set up my room. Move in day was much nicer this year because i had already know my roommate and i have to say it was much nicer moving into South hall then it was moving into Cooke hall last year. Also this year is a lot more fun because I know many more people and have more free time to hang out with them.

Today was the first day of the 2nd week of classes, which means I only have 2 more days of classes left. It is so nice to not have any Friday classes! Also today is the first meeting of the DVCET. I am hoping to try out for the western team this year. I looked in to riding for the team last year but since it was my first year of college I wanted to take it easy. I miss riding my horses so much. Joining the team would be another fun way to meet new people and get to show in different schools. I’m hoping that my riding comes back to me since I haven’t ridden my horse in a while.